Deep Questions

Automatic biological organism vs. Me: return to the childhood state

(posted to dhamma sukha yahoo group)

I am mystified by my life as a young child:
  1. Once as a young child, “Terrence” stepped into a bed of red ants and they stung “Terrence” and “Terrence” was screaming and crying. But the interesting thing is that even though Terrence was engaging in all of those behaviors and experiences, “I” was not in agony. I.e., I am drawing a distinction between the behaviors of the biological organism and me and I’m wondering if continued practice of TWIM returns one to a state where the biological organism is still engaging in its behaviors but there is no “Me” there to agonize over the outcome of it’s actions.
  2. As a young child, i was not always there with my body, yet it seemed to get along safely anyway. E.g., I would find myself in the cafeteria eating lunch. Then I would drop out of contact with the body and find myself in a math class. Then the next time I would pay attention to my body, I would be getting on a school bus to go home. Observation: the biological organism probably had a continuous set of actions and managed to behave in a socially acceptable fashion and not get physically injured even though “I” was not there every minute thinking about what the biological organism should do and say to be socially acceptable and avoid physical injury to itself. Question: does continued practice of TWIM lead to a state free of attention on the biological organism practicing TWIM, yet the biological organism continues to function safely and socially acceptably?